Parenting Anxiety

Well, last night I put Beth-Renee's bassinet in the other room for the first time. Usually she sleeps in our room at the foot of my bed. This new routine made me so nervous, but I think she slept much better in the other room. Before having Beth-Renee I have had somewhat of an anxiety problem. Throw a new baby at me and my anxiety has gone through the roof! So many decisions to make for my baby girl, and there's all this information they tell new mom's about stuff like SIDS and Croup. One nurse told me about her grandson having croup at only a few weeks old and she had to resuscitate him and he was flown to Denver Children's. Talk about scaring a new mom!! This season though has really forced me to trust God with EVERYTHING! While Keith and I were attending Bethany Global University, there was a teacher who taught us to hold things in life with an open palm, because God could take it away at anytime. I've really had to trust God with my little one and know that He is sovereign and good. He will watch over my little one. However, some days that is easier said than done. Sometimes I'll be so anxious that it will turn into a migraine. Those are absolutely no fun! But it's just another reminder to trust in God. I love my little girl so much! I can't even remember what life was like before her.